::: bAbes iN toTaL cOntRoL oF hErSeLvEs :::

omg!!!!

2007-04-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

finally my blog is working per normal once again!!!yayness!!
so much have since happened..both good and not-so-good.

first things first!
my education...
it sort of settled.my application for sim was approved and i have still awaiting for my reply from nus. will update more about school when i have the full details. and GUESS WAT I M DOING MATHEMATICES! something similar to C math.hahahahhaaaa.

that aside. I TURNED 21!! it is the beginning of adulthood so i wanted to start the year with a blast! we went clubbing on the eve of my birthday. it was only suppose to be jan,jas, habib, carasse and myself but they were not the only people who turned up. there were sangi, navin, jan's brother and his friends. it was party party!! i had a birthday cake when the clock struck 12 midnight outside mos!! we wen in again to dance the night away. oh my!!! it feels so good to dance after such a long timeee!!!wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

at about 2a.m the same day i receive first birthday prezzie it was a pearly chain from citigems.. it so prettyy..i heart it and i heart all the people who bought it for me. it was from jan,jas,habib and jan's family.. technically not the first one but the first one that i opened. my second prezzie was from carasse is gave me a box of prezzies; t-shirt, make-up(cuz she complains i always nvr wear enuff make-up.hahaha),face spa, and more make up.. and chain with key locket and earrings.. they are pretty too.i likeeeeeeee..

that was 23 and 24 mar..on 24 march which is the actual day i met my class girls for celebration at harbourfront. we celebrated my birthday@ the sky garden in vivo city. and i had my second birthday cake! i had chocolate filled cake it was simply yummylicioussss...yummy yummy!! then we headed to pastamania to eat and we had the 10-inch pizzzaa(hidden joke for those of u who knows wat i m talking about.hehhe) this was only the first part. my second part was to continue on the 31st mar..

after that i met the three angels (at times mostly lil devils) cara,jan and jas for dinner at newton and another surprise! the were holding my birthday present all along i didnt even realise till they gave me. it was a beach bag with my name sewn my name on it .... and it had more gifts inside the baggy.. it had the havaianas slippers(the golden one) and a belt and my birthday cake.i heart them=)

the celeb did not end there, i had more surprises the following weekend. i met the zash.pok.jayne.kast at habour front. that's all i knew than i was blindfold and taken awayyyyyyyy... i had a surprise guest.. heheh it was sya the beachball... i haven met her in agessssss!!i still was blindfold..

i smell candles the place was dark. i was wondering where the heck i was!!! i was at the ONE FULLERTON FLO!!!! omg was i awedddd..i been wanting to go there and chill but never expected it to my birthday that will be my first time there...it took some time to sink into my head that i was there. hhahahahaha. i mean from harbour front to one fullerton??? then i had my 21 surprisess!!!
they were chocolates.sweet messages from the six girls.zash baked me a huge cookie with my name on it.birthday sabotagesa princessy belt with a sandal buckle.pretty pretty. and of cos the dinner and hell of a fun at FLO!!

MY 21ST YEAR!!!!FULL OF SURPRISES... THERE'S MORE......

sha

balls to you!!

2007-01-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

its all bullshit! i dont know what is your farking problem. the movie? my friends? what the hell when wrong. why are you putting me through this? it has only been a month. i cant see the future either. i m sorry i went for the movie i didnt plan for. if you cant deal with it there is nothing i can do. dont push your luck because it is just going to push me away. and i dun wish for things to turn ugly.

sha

my world

2007-01-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

it been ten days since the year 2007 has began. my life has undergone so many changes that i dun noe where to start. well it is kinda of late but HAPPY NEW YEAR to all and hope this will be a better for all of you people.

this one is for you mum and dad:
i really love you both and you both mean the world to me. things may not look good but after this harsh period things will fall in place one by one. i miss you both alot and i hope that everything will be the way it should be soon. this year things will be lot more different hopefully for the better. though you may not read this i feel so much better after putting it down.

this one is for you carasse:
we have known each as long as i remember and still counting. thanks for the moo moo cow. it was one of the best present i ever got. and i love it to bitss. u are my best friend and u always be no matter what because no one can ever replace you.=) i love you hun. things may not be fantastic for you now. i hope that you will come out strong and a better person. it is a brand new year and it would be a great time to start afresh.like i said before in life there will always be problems but it depends on the individual capability to be able to handle it well and good. i m believe you have what it takes to face all challenges that life presents to you. okay? muacks. hugs. you always be my baobei!

this one is for you jan:
one good thing that has happened to me in mi that i have found many beautiful friends who has been there in every step i take and you are one of them.(that goes without saying) be it happiness be sorrows you have always be there. i dun even have to mention anything and you will know whether there is something amiss. i apperciate the fact that you can read me easily and always knowing to do the right thing and say the right words. giving the world's best hugs listening to my babbles and ramblings without even complaining once.a thank you would never be enough for all you have done.=) but thank you dear. i hope your wishlist will be fufilled(i noe it will be) love love.you always be my d...........e and my lil girl!(it is only for us to know.shhhhhh)

this one is for you jas:
karuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!hahaha.had to do it.lols! hmmm..you have be a good friend. special in your own way, bringing smiles to people life. you have always believed in giving people a chance to prove their worth;never quick to judge people. your forgiving nature is ur curse as well as blessing. i hope that this year will be a happening year for you and be just the way you want it to be okay?love ya.muacks.you will always be my darling!

this one is for you habib:
over the years we have become closer and i m really glad that we did. i would not want miss having such a nice friend. i dun noe if i told you this but ya, you have really a big heart and you a not only are you great as a friend but also as a person. though you always disturb me and tease me and alll you been there to lend a listening ear. always taking care of us three girls and making sure that we are all fine and good. now that you are in NS just want to say that you are really missed and i cant wait for you to come out and have fun with us after that dreadful two or three weeks. you are strong man this two to three weeks is nothing rite.hahaha. the next two years will pass by real quick alrite!take care of yourself okay. though the next two year you cant do much due to NS we will update you and take care of anything that arises.no worries.lols. and we wun bite each other head of(promise!) i heart you.you will always be my dear friend.

this for the girls of 04a2 my precious darlings:
zash:
zanura adlina@ su hua.the girl with all kinds of mixes who still manage to come out right.hahah. the bintan trip really bond us together and helped us understand each other better. there may be couple of things that we may noe agree upon but that doesnt stop us from being friends. i enjoy the time we have our girls day out.all of us, simply sitting down having coffee or muchies and talking(bitching if need be)lols. i hope that you will fine someone really special to be part of you and take care of you as a princess because you only deserve the best my dear girl.=)

poksy:
tan ah pok. it was quite funny when i heard the history of your nick.haha.but it is quite cute and suits you.haha. my best best best sitting partner. always trying to refree btw me and jayne. i m glad that you have found your very own special bestfriend.wish you loads of happiness. you are a really a nice person and anyone to have you part of their live is really lucky(so am i). i believe that you have alot of potential and never deny yourself of anything because you are special. when i dun hear you go banu banu banu i have to admit i miss it.=) lil confession of mine. thanks for my 'princess treatment'.muacksss.

jayne:
i always wonder why you can drive me up the wall and i can never be mad with you, how is that possible? how? you have your way of making me laugh and forgetting why i was mad in the first place. poor pok always caught between us.=) i misss you soo muchh you know and your noise and bullshit.i think i mastered the bullshitting skill from you.hahaha.simply arguing about nonsensical stuff. you an amazing person and you never fail to amuse me.of cos ur favourite line.princess must always be right and banu banu banu banu banu banu banu banu. i hope you remain the kiam pah friend of ours always. add spice to our friendship.lols. but you are really good fren i dun wish to lose.=)

sya:
beachball.bounce bounce bounce! you sure love 'irritating me' (hope you had fun)hahahah. you never let me forget my softball game.('thanks') though we haven really got a chance to talk since school closed i m sure all the things we shared will always be remembered. like the softball game, the bintan trip, you grumbling every morning because you have to wake up early and dayah being a morning person.i miss you girl and quick make more plans with us!! then it will always be like what it used be.i wish you all the best in finding your real happinesss and when you find it keep it close to you heart!hugsss.

kast:
hmmm.. the girl who loves to be pampered by all and i m the brat(irony) well you still a nice person. though i scold you when you whine alot, which is like all the time but you are still my friend and i love you. things may not be really smooth for you all the times but you are a capable person who knows are priorities well and also an independent person who dun believe in troubling others. i m really proud of you and live your the way you want and not shape them to fit others. it is because at the end of the day you only have yourself to fall back on. =)

shan:
well sorry that we always make fun of you. we mean no harm but still sorry okay. you are really dillgent and that will take you far in life. so i hope that this brand new year will give you more success and more! you are always smiling so continue being smily and all okay?

dayah:
alot of happen last year and you always been caught in the middle. i know it has been hard on you and it is good that they are all over now. i hope this year things will be better for you. take care and all the best girl.

this is only for you:
things will always be beautiful between us. and i never stop thinking about you. this year we have started on a new journey and i m really happy with you. some times things get really difficult and we feel like it is taking a toll on us but we never take the easy way out do we? it is far to special to give up and not to mention a pity. i heart you my dear.it is beyond words can descibe and thanks for being the special someone.

and to sangee,navin,michelle,sri,viknesh and my hockey mates and mi friends thanks for being part of life and bring happiness in my life. you people are special and i cant ask for more then for you people to be part of my life journey. love you all.=)

life is never easy because it is to teaches us never to take anything for granted.

love, sha

2006-12-06T11:42:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since I last blogged in.
So A's are like finally over and its time to work and party at the same time.
At times I would just sit at home and stare into space precisely because there's nothing to do.
The recently subscribed HBO pac is utterly useless (sometimes).
I do miss the bus rides to school, entering class with a gloomy face (lack of slp I guess), annoying cami, nab, diyana, ok so almost everyone. Its a hobby of mine. But on the bright side, they end up smiling, hmm maybe not. I miss jan staring into space which just looks at though she is staring at the fatty guy sitting beside her. If only I took a picture of that. I miss the times went me and cami get bored in class esp during phy and math lessons and we end up drawing on each other's hands, and oh yes, playing bingo! I miss jan's chicopek(however u spell that) pen crawling up my skirt and ... yeah, shall not go on. So I guess in retrospect I'm missing school.

How I wish life would just get better

+Jas+

Wish.

2006-12-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm..

i dun noe where to start

i wish for alot of things

a zillion things.

some small, some big

rite now i only have one wish

just want to be there.

but i guess it will not come true

shall not think about no more.

*shrugs*

well well.all this aside

it's someone's birthday today

so i hope all his wishess come true!

soOOOOOOOOOOOooooo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUFIQ!!!

-sha-

Celebrations!!!

2006-11-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

Nov though has been a stressful month

it also been a month of celebrations!

to kick it off...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIDAYAH!!

(5TH Nov)

then came..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PRAVIN!!

(9th Nov)

amongst this birthdays came a weddingg

Ms Watee's wedding!!!

(12th Nov)

CONGRATS!!!

have a blissful marriage life.=)

Its Birthdayss AGAIN!! lols!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANGEEEE!!!

(12th Nov)

(edited)

HAPPY Birthday to Aisha!!!

(13th Nov)

then came the time to celebrate the end of examss

yesyes!!! 2oth Nov 2006!!!

The long waited A levels finally ended.

hahahahahaha

we had to do alot of planning for our darling

Jan jan jam's birthday

we bought her her present then order the cake

(the world's yummylicious cake-hagandaz belgium chocolate cake)

invited people for the SURPRISE PARTY!!!

it was so funnnnn.she loved it we loved it tooo!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNN!!!

(25TH Nov)

after the party we went town to shopp

and headed to esplanade to take pics

we were so crazy taking pics at every possible place

(even the toilet at the marriot hotel was not spared.muahahahha)

was glad that jan enjoyed herself. it is only for her.hugs

just yesterday it was another dear friend's birthday;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAST!!

(26TH Nov)

we will be going out soonn to have great time

hope that you had a great day darling.

lastly to end the month of celebration

is Mark's birthday

advance HAPPY Birthday Mark!!

(30th Nov)

this is what i call having a life

enjoying the weekend and not having to worry about

MONDAY BLUESSS!!!!

the month of DEC aint going to be any less fun

more more and more celebrations

*SMILESSSSS*

-SHA-

i m gooinggg MAdddddd!!!!1

2006-11-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

my parents arent back at yet and it is 230 a.m.!!!!!
everytime i fall asleep i feel as though someone is opening the door
and i get the f***** weirdest dreams? nightmares?!!!
i ald finish reading the book ald
i just finished studying about 1a.m.
i cant study anymore
i only had 3hrs of sleep the previous night
i m f**** exhausted!!!!!

the world is sleeping
and here i m bl0ggging
argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
my stomach hurts like a bitch
soon my head is going to bursttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!
come home soooonnnn plsssss
i m really tiredd and i need my SLEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!
i have a long day tomorrow.
sigh.
*yawn*

-sha-

me.

2006-11-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

maybe it is just me....

-sha-

burn burn burn!

2006-10-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

19 days to A Levels!

But 35 days to End of A LEVELS!

Can't wait to burn all the books!

We study for 2 years & 10 months just to sit through 22 hours of exams!

Ridiculous!!

+ Jas +

believe in miracles?

2006-10-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

i m kind of surprise that i still have some sanity left in me. what is gg on in my mind only HE knows. putting into them into words? it is not going to be easy and
i guess i cant be bothered to.watever.

technology is a screwed up.it decides to 'fall sick' when you need it.wth.you cant live with them and yet cant live without them(just like men.f*)andbecause of that you cant use the excuse that you dun have a communicating device to contact theother party.screw you!i dun understand you;you seem like a f*ing walking contradiction.
when i dun call you say that i beeen too busy to even call when i do you dun answer my call.ass.watever.

things are not that fantastic in aspect at this junction of time.well is the down down period i hope it is not for too long i need some light soon.i always thought i could handle everything,no matter what,even it was difficult,even when i feel as though i just been stabbed in my heart.believing that after a night sleep everything will disappear but it just doesnt anymore.how would that be possible if you cant even fall asleep?

explosion of emotions.is the Big 'A's? that time of the month? just me? family? friends? complications of life? what f* is it?!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
i feel like running away.no i want to run away.but i cant.i really cant.it is too late to give up on anything,everything.sigh.what is happening to me.i am disoriented
messed up.i just cant to get my act right.i m always hurting someone or another as a result i get hurt.i see RED.i had to intentions of hurting but it just happens(it just sounds like a stupid excuse)sigh.sigh.sigh.watever.

-sha-

my moments

2006-10-09T23:09:00.001+08:00

today was a total roller coaster of emotions
totally!
well at the end of the day of cuz
i returned back to earth.lols.
maddness
ego
big fat one at it.argh
i just had to put this now.haha.

-sha-

Graduation 2006

2006-09-24T12:47:00.000+08:00

been a longgg longg time

2006-09-16T14:53:00.000+08:00

I m back!!! from my own world to reality!

before i start my ramblings...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH POK!!!!!!!

hope u had a great daey with *ahem ahem*

prelims have unofficially ended (cos i still have one more paper)

i have no comments about them right now

we shall see when the results are released.

(and i did study)

i finally understood what

it really meant when you cant please everyone

and that is too be a little selfish

it does not make one happy

but at the very least it makes

one less miserable.

i want to

SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my lungs out. i have bottle up far too many things

i need to let them out.

my thoughts

my voice

i seem to have lost them all.

i dun wish to talk abt it

i just want them to leave me;

my mind

my soul

leave just me.

if you think i dun care

so be it

if you think i dun love

so be it

if you think i m selfish

so be it

i m tired of

pleasing

explaining

making up

feeling bad

feeling sorry

and

simply tired of TRYING.

Happy Birthday to ME!

2006-08-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

WooHoo! I'm SUPER happy cos i've just turned 19! Still young but WHO CARES! I had the best day ever thanks to my dearest gals, Jan & Sha, not forgetting my family and friends. The experience i had yesterday morning will be an unforgettable one. Let me it share with you.
Alrite, from 12am to 530am i was conferencing with Sha, Jan, Habib and Rajiv. All of our heads were glued to the table during lessons. Guess we are too old for this already. Hehe. Ok so, the exciting part, OPENING UP THE PRESENTS!

I had circular boxes piling up on my table. WHAT WAS IN IT?! SO EXCITING! -till now i feel the excitiment that i will keep opening them up.

The first box contained a candle. I guessed that right. HEHE!
SO WHAT'S NEXT?!

The second box contained scented flowers. Hiding in between them was a BEAUTIFUL bracelet and a ring! I adore them! Its like love at first sight. okok... next..

The third box contained retro looking earrings and necklace! I LOVE!!!

You may be wondering whats in the box right. Well, for now its just tissue cos eat whatever was in it. HEHE! It was CHEESE! How yummyyyyyyyy right. Had it with nachos during break. There was still some left which i ate at home. I licked the container clean!

The fourth box contained girl's boxers. Thats why i blurred the picture. Its mine! Cannot see! HMPH!

The fifth box contained perfume cushioned by a soft shawl. Last night i almost wanted to fall alseep with it cos the material is just SO NICE!! Oh yes, the smell of the perfume is soooooooooo nice!!

The sixth box contained a top from Girl's Heritage. Hehe! Nice right.. It just gets better..

The second last box contained a note from my dearest gals, Sha & Jan. I heart that note and you gals. It also contained a voucher, a PEDICURE VOUCHER! I can't wait to go!! HEHE!

That box contained cube magnets making up my name to put a picture of us. That stand is on my table now. HEHE! Ok now, hold ur breathe - thats what i did.

Do you see anything? HAHA! Obviously you won't. Cos i'm making use of it now. Its one thing i never expected my dearest gals to buy. It is something i adored alot and had to sell it cos of... Don't ask. Its Nokia 3230. The moment my eyes laid on the phone, i cried. Cos the phone really meant ALOT to me.

I didnt realise that there were 19 presents altogether until Jan told me. Guess I was just trying to digest everything. THANK YOU GALS ALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! I SOOOOO APPRECIATE IT! There is no word that can describe how i felt. I HEART u both. HUGE SMILE!! =)

+ Jas +

birthdays and more birthdays!!!!

2006-08-11T21:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO

Zanura Adlina Shu Hua!!!!!

we had a celebration for her on the 8th august

after the national day celebration.

we went to eat at tekka(dun ask me why)

then we went citylink for ice-cream!!

Yummylicious! at Gelare!

we walked and walked and walked

finally reached esplanade.

it was cake cutting time!!!

we bought the the cake from one fullerton

it was heaven!!! the chocolate was melting in our mouths...

hmmmmmmm...=)

after all the cutting and huggings

we gave her the prezzie-a purse a beautifulllllllll oneeeeeeee!!

she loves it.

it went as planned..no one can be as relieved as me and poksy darl.=)

there is two more birthdays coming up

will update abt them we it has taken place

till then...

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SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

X country

2006-08-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

This is a special entry for Crazy Gracey and Jan!
HUGE SMILE!

we are the champions!

2006-07-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

today was MI's first cross country and it was a SUCCESS!!!!

The results:
CHAMPION HOUSE : GARNET
CHAMPION BOYS : GARNET
CHAMPION GIRLS : ONYX

BOYS TEAMS
BOYS 1ST : GARNET
BOYS 2ND: GARNET
(cant rmbr the boys 3th and 4th placing. oopsy!)

GIRLS TEAMS
GIRLS 1ST : ONYX
GIRLS 2ND: GARNET
GIRLS 3RD : ZIRCON

GIRLS 4TH : GARNET

INDIVIDUAL

BOYS
1ST : SHAKIL-GARNET(CAPTAIN)
2ND: JESWINDER-GARNET
3RD: SADIQ-GARNET
4TH: ZAKI-ONYX

GIRLS
1ST: FELICIA-ONYX
2ND: UMA-ONYX
3RD: SHAHEEDHA-GARNET
4TH: SANGEETHA-ZIRCON
All in all it was great.
we have to thank kesavan for dragging us into runnig for x-ctry.hehe!

zash.pok.sya.kast.jayne,dhivyah.jan and me went to eat at junction 8.
sorry girlies cld spent much time with you all.
i promise to make it up soon alrite.hugs darlings!
best part of x-ctry-he is cute! cute! cuteness!

dearie glad tt you are feeling better
'indirectly' i have been the cause
though you said it was not my fault.
and nvr nvr be harsh.the pain is almost unbearable.
love you.=)
thank you for making wat i thought would have the worst week
a GREAT ONE! no words would be enough to thank you.muacks.

this as was the best part and now lets take look at the other other side:
my mye results were out.bad very bad.
i have performed the worst this year.
PTM did not go so well.sigh.
i decided to take watever comments that i need
and forgot others.
i will work hard, i have started.
come on people lets do it together!!!!
UNIVERSITY IS OUR DESTINATION!!!!

-SHA-

crush on a boy.

2006-07-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

It feeeeeeeeels Good!

To come to school ever morning.

To day dream, looking out of the class.

To get excited whenever my eyes get glued to one spot and my mind wonders away..

I love school. School does not suck! Hehe.

Tada da ta ta! I'm Lovin' It!

+ Jas +

darnn it.

2006-07-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

I'm screwed!

Mid year papers were such a disappointment!

Argh! Oh yeah, some teacher said I improve.

Is 37 called an improvement?!

Might as well have not done the paper at all.

Bloody hell.

I miss year one dearly.

In a few months time, its gonna be the end of the three years journey.

How fast time passes. Wonder what's gonna happen next.

+ Jas +

need for air

2006-07-19T13:25:00.000+08:00

feeling suffocated.gasping for air
HYPERVENTILATE.
as though the body is separate from the soul.
is it exhaustion?*shrugs*

to you; wishing u all the best.
it seem like it was only yesterday
and you are no longer around.
i guess it is the memories
that is going to matter now.
it will always be in my mind.
thanks for all the things we shared.=)

i have no more words.

-sha-

over and over again

2006-07-12T16:40:00.000+08:00

darn it!my previous entry didnt get published..

FINALLLYYYYYYY the mye are over.
it seem as though it was eternity!
yayness to tt! but tt would mean it is really time to mug for
THE BIGGGGGG As!
all the hard work will pay off.i m confident of tt!
i m training to be a NERD!
yes a nerd and i mean it.

my routine would be
studies.run.studies.run.maybe swim
haven quite decided on that.

since exams were sort of over
so to mark the end of mye
the girlies decided to catch a movie
but ended up eating eating and eating
guess was in the binge-ing mood
had pasta. had ice-cream and more ice cream.
got out of town before we spent all our time and money eating.
oh yes.i was proud of myself of not messin up my blouse after my food
and just wen i was about to finish my ice-cream it dirtied my shirt.darn!

while we were eating.. we were chatting and all
sya brought the issue
of how sometimes girls dun listen
and complain of being ignored
wen they are doing the talking.its ironical.
girls will always be girls.hahahhahahaha
though we were tired of all the walking
we had a good time laughin and looking at dresses
and everything tt was available to our eyes.

this if for you my sweets:
though no words can console you
and it may seem so hard to swallow
and it had been a blow to you
you have continued be strong
and nvr once indulging in self-pity.
i m so proud of u hun.hugs. and i love u.

determination.

diligence.

confidence.

strength.
is all i need for the next four months.

-sha-

2006-06-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

Yay! I can't wait for school!!

I can't wait to get my ass in between Cami & Jan.

I can't wait to see Sha on the bus everyday.

I'm so exicited but worried that the same time!

Exams.. Argh.. Darn it Darn it.

I still remember Nas and Ain saying, "Fucking A Levels".

I miss the seniors.

They always had something to talk about.

Nicholas running here and there.

The star wars episode.

Nas, green tea man.

Max, the crazy man.

Matt, the typical indian.

Sham, the one who cant zip up his pants.

Fir, bahlol guy.

Aisyah, the star.

Dips, one really mad girl.

Sri, one who bullies me.

And many many more of them!

I miss yall alot.

Hope you guys are doing fine.

For now, study all the wayyyyyyyyyyy. It'll be worth it. It has to be.

+ Jas +

the hols are ending and i m doomed!!!!!

2006-06-23T12:02:00.000+08:00

this is the last weekend of the holidays.OMG!!!!
actually there is no use in frettin now...it is uselessssss
i did study..abit la. it is holidays and yes it is the HOLIDAYS!

2O tablets.wat was tt for?!
inflicting pain on urself and others
isnt tt wat u do best
i wonder wat u were trying to prove.
hurt.those words were not meant.
and 'OF COURSE' u deserve better than me.
all tt aside.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

-sha-

muggin? exams?

2006-06-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

when holidays began everyone was playing. but it changed,they started muggin. except for SHA! (ie. me)

this is wat been happening for the holidays.
27th-30th may: was busy preparing for the vietnam trip
went over my cousin's place for prayers
31st-4th june: vietnam trip, it was an educational trip
yes it was okay.we had alots of fun
(if that comes under studying then i did study.hahahaha)

5th june: i went to my cousin's place because she just got married
and i was unable to attend her wedding.sorry. but i lowe her!
6th june: hmmmm.. was suppose to go out with the girls but last min changes
so i just rest at home. after the trip very tired.=)
7th june: met up with my sec sch fren..been a long time since we met so
had alots to update each other. so there went my whole day.
8th june: only woke up at 11.*sticks out tongue* went for econs lesson from
1-3p.m. was not feeling well..was sick and all so i think i fell asleep
i needed my sleep.med made me drowsy.(it is not an excuse but a reason)
9th june: went town with jan..jas was to come along but cldnt make it..jan tricked me
yes tt naughty lil girl.we had fun and i got my prezzie, it is sooooo nice.
i had to go out cuz i haven seen her for a while already then had to give the
things i bought from vietnam.rite jan?
1oth june: i had tuition EARLY MORNING! yep. in the evening had to attend a wedding
not tt i enjoy gg to weddings but i had to attend this one.
11th june: sunday is not studying day.it is not.just not.so i decided to read a book
use the com and phone.(this content can be ignored)
12th june: had history lesson in the morning..barely ten students turned up for class.
it should have ended only at 1 but he decided to dismiss us early so we
ended about 11 plus. went bk for lunch..we were hungry and it was too
early to get back home. i met up with jas... she wanted milkshake frm mac's
bb mac's didnt have it so we headed down to bp. after that she came over to
my place and we watched soul plane.
13th june: after such a 'fruitful' week, i had econs in the morning and i was late
for class.(half and hr, i dun think i haf been so late before..bad influence
by who? i wonder too..lols) went over jas' place, jan was ald there. we
wanted to get some studying done but ended up watching basic instincts2
and oprah.how 'enriching'!

and WORLD CUP definitely is not HELPING!!!! I have not been watching all the matches but most of them.. i stay up till like 2a.m. on some days. and today i am definitely watchin Brazil's match. yest the aust-jap match was really funny..up to the 83 min jap was leading and then at the 84 min the aust scored it did stop there 86min 91 min 2 more goals. and aust won the match! 3 goals within 6 mins! this game proved tt u can nvr be sure till the very last min.oh boy.
now france vs switzerland are playing it still 0-0. somebody faster score! i m just glad korea won just now..i m not a supporter of korea but i just wanted korea to win. of all the matches so far i think tt is best germany vs costa rico. mexico and iran game was not bad too.fast moving game. england game was so disappointed. i missed the italy vs ghana..italy guys are cute.hahahaha.tt is the only reason why i want to watch tt match.spain also.tt's all for world cup.

thank god i have no lesson tmrw..can wake up later..now i m getting back infront of the tv. i will study tmrw. yes i will. a promise made to myself.
i m being totally honest in this entry.that's all.*smiles*
-sha-

stupid cow.

2006-06-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

Argh! You stupid cow! Why did you ever exist.

I want school! I need school! Sigh, i'm boring everyone.
I miss having to see you guys almost everyday!

Anyway, thank god i didn't attend the function.

Saved my arse from being burnt.

+ Jas +

something tt only belongs to me.me.me.

2006-06-11T15:44:00.000+08:00

surprise!!!
new prezzie for meeeeee
i love it sooo muchhhh!!!!
it feels so good to wear
cuz it is wrappped with loads of love
thanks darlings!!!

to all those who unwell
take care of urself
drink loads of water
and rest well
okies.=)

sangiiii thanks for ur prezzie
it was such a sweet lil thing
to my 04a2
glad u all like the lil dragonfly we bought back.

hmmmmmm...
dear i hope u are doing ok
wanna see u soon..
miss u.hugs.

-sha-

back to Singaporeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2006-06-06T12:41:00.000+08:00

back to s'poreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
after 5 days in Vietnam!!!
it was loads and loads of fun!!!!!!!
we visited a couple of museums, interesting ones
it was crowded, people there seem to love gg to museums
the trip helped us to further understand history of vietnam.
Shopping was GOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!

i missed home badly.. was kinda homesick
my mummy's cooking!! missed it so muccccccccchhhhhh!!!
there was only one muslim restaurant.yes only one.
we ate there most of the time.
there was one indian veg restaurant
the food was not so bad.
most days there we survived on snacks.

we wanted to order pizza in vietnam
guess wat happened..
the so-called chef didnt come to work
so no food for the day.
we imagine wat it would be like if it happened back at home
it made us laugh.
vietnam was influence much by the french
so the pastries were yummy!
wished that the trip was longer...=)

will update with more pictures next time.
toodles!

-sha-

Beaky & Tekelu Turtle

2006-05-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

These are my two new best friends.

The yellow is called Beaky and the other is Tekelu Turtle aka, T square.

My dearest banu bought is for me.

They are gonna kept me company till she returns back from her trip.

BANU! WE MISSING YOU!

Hurry home. Pouts. I have no one to talk to now. No one to disturb.

+ Jas +

quando

2006-05-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

Guess wad i'm doing now.
Haha. Listening to Quando Quando Quando.
The song is so beautiful!
Imagine a couple dancing to this song underneath the stars.
Romance is in the air.
Its back to year one.
YAY! I'm super happy. I was dying for these moment to arrive and IT HAS!
I miss my girls. I miss jan's bed. I miss sha's nonsense. I miss habib disturbing me.

I miss amarit's whinning.

Oh boy! I'm missing school already!

Anyway, you peeps out there should know that Janane played netball in pri sch days! Unbelivable!

+ Jas +

suppose to be studying....

2006-05-22T13:05:00.000+08:00

i didnt go to school todae.
first i AM TIRED second i m NOT WELL.
heard there are alot of absentees in my class todae
guess it is kinda expected.
yes i finished my econs assignments but there many other assignments
many many more at that.=(
i supposed to be studying now.......

i cant be more happy that the month is ending.
this month is most depressing month in my so many yrs of life
(okay not that many yrs)
in and out of the hospital...
been a month for break-ups...
the torture my sweethearts are going through...
my body feels tired..
my mind feels tired...

my head hurts like hell..i m gg to sleep again
hope the sleep will take my pain away.............

-sha-

Fate.

2006-05-21T15:52:00.000+08:00

we had our 3rd I-day cum carnival yesterday.

cheers to 04a2! for all the hardwork peeps.

there were alot of people in the

carnival.

it was crowded and mr sun was smiling at us

thank god

though it was blazing hot

we needed the shine.

the only thing was missing was

jasmine kaur.

she had to malaysia for prayers

so she couldn't join us.

many x-mi and ji students came back to join us

saw prashant after such a lo0nggggggggggggggg time

miss that boy.

the boy with three stomachs.hahaha

and he loves the no.27 rite?

after all the fun in the carnival

we were shagged

but the fun did not end there.

went for dinner with the girlies

then for pool game.

though i suck at it

we still had nothing less

but loads of fun and laughs!!

perfect timing?

fate?

which one of this is it?

-sha-

wads sorry?

2006-05-14T14:22:00.000+08:00

The word Sorry has no meaning to it anymore.
Its a common word we use frequently.
There's no sincerity in it anymore.

A brilliant smile accompanied by glimmering eyes.
A glance is sufficient.
Thousands of words were uttered without audibility.
The outcome was a sad shame, a road never traveled,
Yet dreamed of frequently.
I am sorry for the pain I
Caused you, just as you are sorry for the unspoken.

+ Jas +

funny shit

2006-05-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

This was taken from Devana's blog.
Seriously funny.

"You!!worry abt gal u giilaa,
Less than 9 months n Alevels laa.

Makan prata, with chicken curry,
run 2.4km and burn some tummy.

Come back home quickly...
sleep study n do homework properly.

your chemistry is gona history...
physics n maths... long story...

all day- u watch MTV, hip hop?
if u screw up, u must work at mama shop!!

Better pull up ur ankles socks...
must train brain to think that studies rocks...

Alevel then to NTU or NUS,
Army, uni then work and marry a JACKASS
only 9 months laa, study hard babi...

then next time u can buy
A BIG house from HDB. "

I think everyone has gone mad over A Levels.
Sigh.
+ Jas +

vesak day.

2006-05-13T17:37:00.000+08:00

Yay! Mother's Day is tmr.
I can't wait to see the smile on my mummy's face when she sees her gift.
Hope she likes it!
After yest's grocery shopping and Bib pulling my hair,
Jan and me went to sha's place.
Glad she is feeling better.
Our eyes look red. Oh well.

I enjoyed vesak day!!

At least MOST of it.

+ Jas +

2006-05-07T12:54:00.000+08:00

When i get bored i do this.

Its utter RUBBISH!

+ Jas +

allalala

2006-05-07T12:46:00.000+08:00

Last thursday, Sha and I went to Starbucks.
One of the moody-est days of the week.
Warm choco cake.Oreo cheesecake.Some Caramel drink.Iced Mocha.
Haha. I asked banu to pose for a pic. So here it is.

Hehe. OOPS!

+ Jas +

2 more vids

2006-05-01T17:03:00.000+08:00

These are another 2 vids from the competition.
The first one is darn funny.
The second one is way way energetic!
Enjoy!!

+ Jas +

2006-04-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

I'm nuts over a duo.
They participated for the Levi's Dance Competiton.
Their dance was too good!
Not forgetting their song with their moves.
The girl can really move it.
WATCH IT!

+ Jas +

hate it.

2006-04-30T18:11:00.000+08:00

There comes a point of time when you just get tired of what you used to do.

Last night, i was listening to a friend's love story.
Was just so unexpected.
Its a sad one but worth waiting for.
I pray that everything goes well.

I so badly want to shake off the tension school is giving us.
Teachers should take time to realise how much of work they are giving us to do.
I just want holidays to come fast.

On second thought, maybe not.
Right after holidays its exam!
A whole lot of year1, year 2 and year 3 topics!
ARE THEY MAD OR WHAT!

On top of the bloody mental torture these people are giving us, I'm being pressure physically.
If i can't jump, mean i can't jump.
Deaf or what. Don't expect me to insert springs into my legs.
Like Chrishan says, " GOD DAMMIT!"
+ Jas +

2006-04-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

we are going out!!yay!!
we are heading town. pls rain go away
u have blessed us enough=)
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

hockey is still going on strong!
i haven been performing for the past two games
i been doing really badly.
wake up sha!!wake up!!
i dun noe if it is panic, fear wat it is!
argghhhhhhhh!!!
pls god give us the strength to continue performing!

hmmmm... i m lost of words once again...

-sha-

Its worth it.

2006-04-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

I will stick with my decision.
For once.
May it be hard, just have to live with it.
Cause I made a choice that will change my coming days.
I want to have the taste of glory and joy at the end of it all.
Its worth.
+ Jas +

it will hurt till i remember

2006-04-25T20:52:00.000+08:00

hockey A div has kicked off. we played against njc and cjc.
we drew one and won one respectively.
more games to come
and we have to constantly improve ourselves.
we can do it girls!!!!
never say die that is attitude!

wat u said will hurt as long as i remember.
no one has said tt before.
words of anger can hurt so much.
i m okay.i have get back to feet after a while
regardless of my emotions. i cant afford to.

tmrw is rjc match. focus.play hard. and we walk with our heads high.
good clearance.no legs.marking.

-sha-

girls' night out.

2006-04-23T14:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Girls' Night Out.
Sha, Jan, Amarit and Me!
Finally after two years, Amarit went out with us!
Great achievement!
We went to watch Take The Lead!
If only we were at the back seats, then we could have danced our shoes off!
Ok maybe only i would do that.
Oh well. I heart them!
Anyway, then we ate at Mac's. I got my ice-cream! La La La La!
Was a wonderful night. Thank you dearies. I love yall!
+ Jas +

a nut head story.

2006-04-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

There is this idiot who i have been talking to.
Who is a nut head.
Who has brains in his backside.
Who copies my lines. ( cos i'm smarter )
Who is F.O.S
erm.. sha.. I think the idiot is a gonner.
Hehe. Oh yes.
Who eats fried food all day and grows fat.
Who can't run for nuts. ( as if i can run )
Who does not dare to open his mouth in Toh Tuck campus.
Oh well, only my dearies know who is that idiot.

+ Jas +

just to update the roller coaster life i been leading!!

2006-04-15T13:16:00.000+08:00

i didnt realise that i have not blogged for so longgggggggggggggggggg.
hahahah.oh well everytime i want to blog my com gives me problem.
stupid com doesnt like me.
alot alot of things happened that i dont know where to start now..

let's start my mummy!!
my dear mummy gave us a heart attack by collapsing on thursday.
but she is better now.
back at home resting already
and she cant wait to go out again.
tt's my mummy.love her so much. and to the one she adores most please learn to treasure her.
i know u are so fasinated by my life and u will come by here.
if you unhappy just leave and stop being a pain in the ass.
dun take my politeness to your advantage cuz i wun remain long this way.
i miss her cooking already.
nothing can beat my mummy's cooking.yummylicious!!!!

school..there are ups and downs...yea.
oh yes hockey tournament is here!!!!
it is starting next week.to be exact 180406!
everyone is falling sick.
gals and boys pls take care of urself u cant afford be sick now k.
each and everyone of u r important to the team.
drink lots of water and eat well k.we can do it!!
i love all my hockey gals, they are the best team anyone can ask for.
hugs!

sorry jas i haven been able to go out with u for quite some time now.
hockey has kept me busy and haven had much time.
we still june hols. miss u darl!!
love you loads and loads.
muacks.
thank u janu for keeping me company at the hospital
even though you were tired after training.
really apperciate it.
it was a good talk back home.
some things just dun change even when changes occurs
i lowe u so muchhhhhh
you take care of urself too okay we need our CAPTAIN!!!!

he is migrating to Australia maybe in june or july..
i know it is sad and all
but you have to leave. u decided on it.
life is such. sorry i m not helping.
all i can say is the time we spent together is treasured.really.

thanks to all my girlies in school for being such sweethearts during mu bestt and worst times.hugs!

-sha-

finally i bought something worth.

2006-04-07T19:11:00.000+08:00

Shopping Day!
I bought two gorgeous tops and two necklaces in Bugis.
All for just 33 bucks.
The shop owner was super nice!
I so love him.
He even gave me a 40% discount card.
Thank you jas and jacky for accompanying me through the heaty lanes.

Its suprising that how my feelings change.
I just want to have fun now.
I dun want stress.
I dun want any shitified nonsense.
Like i said.
I just want to enjoy.
I really miss those times. I want the fun back.
+ Jas +

Appreciation day

2006-03-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

Dear Sha,
Happy Bdae!!
And finally you are 20!
You are growing o-l-d-e-r.
But like jan said, it doesnt look like it. hehe.
I lowe banu. Cos you make me happy.
OH yes yes, i love my papa. He sprayed whipcream on you!!!
Defination of looking old:turn you white.
Hope you like e cake. Muacks.
Thank you for being by myside always. You have always listened and sensed me.
You put my feelings into words.

Dear Jan,
Thanks to that just one special day, we managed to get back to where we were.
Changes come and go. I'm just glad that you came back. If i'm ever such an ass, just kick me in the butt.

Dear Cami Kaur,
You are my sunshine every morning. We share moments together. Ones that we'll never forget. Like geting electric shock together. hehe.

Dear you,
With every conversation we have, we always make me laugh with ur stupidity. You give me the motivation i need in order to carry on.

These following people always bring light into life.
gracey.sangee.vj.navin.habib.moses.sadiq.my classmates.
ideal.the cute guys and gals from bartley.kumari.renu.
saha.shan.jesvin.ind.my cousins.gracekandoly.jeff.rayner.
sonia.devin.gora.ujala.kulu.ravi.renga.bika.gulshan.smitpal.
& all those whom i didnt list.
If not for all of you dearies , i wouldnt be this happy today. Thank you. =)
+ Jas +

bintan retreat

2006-03-14T15:49:00.000+08:00

Day 1
We took a bus from school to tanah merah ferry terminal. After which a ferry to tanjung pinang. The ride was bumpy! Went out to e deck for sightseeing. BEAUTIFUL! Took pictures.

Reach there. Was burning hot. Had lunch at some high-class restaurant with low-class furniture (e.g. Plastic chairs). Had briefing for 3 hours in some suffocating lecture room with non working air conditioners on what we were going to do.

After which we took our room keys and headed to our villa. So chalet looking house! I LOVED IT! Shared among, Umi, Shaheeda and Theresa (Room 1) and Jan, Amarit and me (Room 2).Jan rushed in with Umi and started searching for the best room. After must pushing and shuffling, we got the room. We had 3 rooms in our villa.

Two with double bed and one with 2 single beds. No one took the single bedded room. So again, the 6 of us fought for the extra room’s pillows and comforter. It was a fair fight. We got 1 pillow and a comforter each. We had free time from 4 to 7. Fit through a small timing for dance practice for MI idol. Practiced till we got all the steps right. I was so stressed out as there was no radio to play the music and had to use my hand phone instead. The music volume was not loud enough. So had to keep screaming to everyone to stay quite as possible. But darn Theresa didn’t seem to understand English. Anyway, managed to get through it. All of us showered and got ready for the night. As we walked up to the conference room for dinner, we experienced survivor look alike path way. Was kind of romantic.

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I didn’t manage to eat proper dinner. My head got throbbing badly and the food sucked. Was not sure if I could dance when eventually I did. I was so proud of my classmates. We did something for MI idol night. Just so proud of them. Jan and Diyana took pictures of us dancing. Sha’s class won the first prize, they did a Bollywood dance. Very bollywood style with trees and all.

We headed back to rooms after making a stop to e convenient store to buy food. Theresa, Umi and Shaheeda went over to stay in Serin’s villa which was beside ours. So we took the TV and fan from the living and placed them in our room. Surprisingly, the reception of the TV was so much better in our room. We ate, watched TV, poured power on Amarit and then went to sleep till morning.

Day 2
Rise and shine! We did not go for breakfast at the restaurant. We had our breakfast consisting for hot milo and butter cookies at our villa. After which we headed out to the conference hall for briefing and then went out for city tour.
First, we went to the vegetable farm. It was scorching hot. And the plants we tickling our bare legs thanks to three-quarters we were wearing.

We visited the floating village. We were advised not to buy open canned drinks and any food there as they might be contaminated. The land below the houses were dirty to the extreme. It was really filthy. People threw rubbish out of the window but their houses were clean. They had to buy water in huge bottles. Men pushed carts to houses to give water.

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Thirdly, we went to Bintan Indah. A place for shopping. I had been there before. We bought a few things.
We were so hungry! We ate at Shangri - La restaurant. The food there was so much better. Had steam boat soup, crabs, sweet and sour fish, kang-kong, chicken pieces. Super nice!
Lastly we headed to Ramayana for shopping again. Bought a number of stuff.
Went back to the hotel to rest. On the way, Jan, Amarit and I decided to skip to talk at night. Amarit and I went swimming. Vj joined us too. Was fun but the pool water was dirty and e water current was a little strong.

After swimming for a long time with our finger tips looking aged, we dried ourselves and headed to Vj’s room. We experienced black out a couple of times while turing on the Playstation which Vj brought along. Few minutes later we returned back to our villa. Showered.

to be continued....

Banu song

2006-03-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

Banu is a dinosaur
from our imagination
And when she's tall
She's what we call a dinosaur sensation
Banu's friends are big and small
they come from lots of places
after school they meet to play and sing with happy faces
Banu shows us lots of things
Like how to play pretendABC's, and 123's
And how to be a friend
Banu comes to play with us
Whenever we may need him
Banu can be your friend too
If you just make-believe her!

Hehe! WE lowe u sha! Nice ah the song! just for you!
+ Jas +

as the days goes by

2006-03-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

it has been 5 days and counting. cant wait for the arrival.hahaha.to 'fight' more. it is one thing tt i am missing.yes i complain about it wen it gets really really bad.other than that it gives me some kind of assurance.3 weeks is a long wait, hopefully march keeps me real busy and i wun have time to think about anything else then wat i need to do.arggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!

yes yes there is NO MORE TAMIL!!!!!! because i cleared my paper.yayness!!! congrats to my seniors who have made it to the uni.so proud of u guys.=)

is it just me? i dunnoe noe.

-sha-

whatever happens it happens for a reason

2006-02-26T14:17:00.000+08:00

when smthg goes wrong and u want look at frm a +ve view.we simply say watever happens it happens for a reason.it is so weird.everything is just hanging there waiting for me to tug and take a look.but i m so not doing it.i m kinda avoiding it.y? i think i should let wait awhile.cuz i feel so and also because it is not hurting anyone.yes.i should just let it be.

he left this morning @830.he called me from the airport.he will be away for 2 weeks+++++.sigh.as usual we had a small arguement.wth.yep.we talked it out and all ended the conversation well.
*************************************=)

words are words.once said u cant take it back.u can apologise thousand times but the hurt will take sometime to heal.depending on the extent the hurt tt it has caused.there are also sweet words. just because by not saying u r my dear,darling or honey.doesnt mean i care any less.wen i say u matter to me. I MEAN IT.I REALLY DO.wen i say u dun.MEANS I DUN.and yes i agree totally that small things means more than the big ones.

march holidays is going to be really fun this year.
10march-12march-Pre-u 3 retreat@ bintan trip!we are planning pyjama party!!!!yes we heard the teachers.it is not all fun fun trip.we will still have fun rite??!!!hahaha! cant wait for our retreat.
13 march- we having a high tea.yayness!! if i m not wrong it is at orchard hotel.it will a girls day out.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
15 march-17 march-hockey camp in school.it is gg to be intensive training and all. but we all love it.cuz we get to train hard and play hard! i think we are having a bbq on the 2nd or last nite.hockey rawks!

on top of all this comes time for some real serious work.last week of march our common test. i cant afford not to perform cuz, it is for myself.and prove to some people.and i planning for one day out party in May and not to be any under any kind of torture during june holidays.so all this will only go well if i do well for my common test.i wanna perform and also have fun.followed by our tournament, our A div is starting in late april or early may.it is our final year.we want to achieve wat we targetted for.it is a team's effort not an individual.

all the best to all A-level students who are receiving their results coming wed.
(including those waiting for their project work and mt)

-sha-
p.s: to all those who think i m a bimbo. i m telling you I M NOT! and i m not denying alrite.

What a day.

2006-02-24T16:38:00.000+08:00

My arse is getting heavier with each day i spend at home.
I'm BOOOORED!
Can't wait to be back to school on monday!
I want Colours, Laughter, Music, Dance & Love back into my life.
I'm sick of being Sick!
Today is the last day of my medication.
F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!! phew..
I never want to be in this state ever again.
Totally totally sucks. ( but there's the pleasure of long sleep)
I miss School!
I miss my class.
I miss the three pigs who sit beside me. (the third is a imaginary classymate Nabs created)
I miss Banu & Bib.
Haiz. Can't wait!
Hmm.. Talking about BIMBO Sha Banu.. HEH!
She kept me laughing all night.
She was just Super Clumsy. ( what's new)
Thank you dear.
+ Jas +

boredom

2006-02-23T17:36:00.000+08:00

i m sitting in school lib waiting for my fren. we haf trg later at ntu.
i am so happy i dun have to present tmrw.YAYNESS! hahaha!
but there is something else to do.i haf to do some screaming in the morning.
it is nothing bad-really.lols.
the history was really time consuming.oh well.i guess we learnt something.
i dun think i will totally forget abt it.

i m actually feeling a lil hungry.but i dun feel like eating anything at the same time.
yes.i can hear pple reading going wat the hell.
tt's just me.it is the worst time of the month.i m gg a lil off.
my moods can swing from one end to the other.
but i haven been grouchy the whole week.(unless u instigate me knowingly or unknowingly)
tt cant be avoided. i only get upset with people who i care abt.
if u dun mean anything to me i will most probably ignore u.shut u off MY WORLD.
so if i have been throwing my temper at u cuz of one reason or another is cuz i care abt ur well-being.guess i m too paranoid.i will check on it alright.

jas been so sick.poor gal.i hope you come back to school soon.
come back quick okay.miss u dear. recover fast than i give u ur treat soon.
jan u too take care of urself. i will stop nagging at you alright.
guess i should learn to be less worry-ward.[i will try promise!=) ]
hope to run together with you gals soon!!(yes jas u will join us after ur mc.lols)

though i have heard 'ignorance is bliss' i dun think one can be tt dumb.
a fren told me once everyone can be a hypocrite depending on the circumstances.
but the level of hypocracy tt varies.with this i shall end.cuz
the librarian is chasing us out already. will be back sooon.
and everyone THINK GOOD KARMA!!HAPPY THOUGHTS!

-sha-

2006-02-22T16:31:00.000+08:00

February started off well
UNTIL
I had a muscle pull.
Ached liked hell.
Pain killers and Jabs.
Then came Valentine's Day.
Hilariously- Scary situation.
The day after got admitted in SGH.
4 days of torture.
Acute GE.
Needle up my on both hands.
More medication, jabs, drips..
Horrible hospital food.
Restricted movement.
Glad I'm out of there.
Never want to be hospitalised EVER again.
Really..
ps: Thank you to those who came by to visit me.
Gladly appreciated it.

One thing that this month will keep me smiling is the ever long MC till 4th of March and no PE!
Muahah! ;)
+jas+

no holidays this mth!!

2006-02-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

feb is coming to an end.FINALLY!!!!
u noe we had no holidays AT ALL this month. it was like school day everyday!
we had the weekends of course but then it was over before i even realise my weekend was here.
yep.it sad rite? i noe.
but my last weekend was SO FUNNNNNNNNN!!!
me and jan went town then suntec then marina.
it was actually shopping trip.but we did really get anything much.
it was to shop for her mum's birthday prezzie.
oh we went to millennia walk.to the CANDY EMPIRE we headed.
we bought chocolates.chocolates.chocolates.licorice.(i think tt's how it is spelled)
it was simply yummyliciousssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!hahahhaha!
how can i forget?! jan attracts GREEN WORMS!!!!LOLS!!
i noe she is gonna scream wen she sees this.oh well.when is she not loud?hahaha!
but i love u.hugs.

he is recovering tooo!YAY!!!
but he is flying off this sunday
wtf* rite.
he will be gone for 2 weeks or longer.stupid guy wat a time to choose to fly off.
and wen he is back. i will be in Bintan.how great.
then followed by my HOCKEY CAMP!!
cant wait for march it will be definitely more busier than feb
but it will be a fun-filled month!!!!

jas pls good care of urself.i noe u haf been a good girl and taking ur meds.
hope u get well enuff to start running around.love u muacks!

-sha-

mth of feb

2006-02-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

the month of feb started and it is already 12 feb.

it has been a super busy month i should say.

yep.but it is month filled with fun!

with loads of laughter.hugs.cuddles and a lil of tears.

valentine's day is coming in two days time.

tt's fast!

let me do a lil updating before i start of with v'dae

first things first.

feb is not only a month of love

but also a month of birthdays!

jasjit's b'dae was on 4 feb 2006.

sonia's b'dae was on 5 feb 2006.

ravi's birthday was on 10 feb 2006.

happy birthday to all of u peeps once again!!!!!!!

sonia's 21st birthday party was on 4 feb

we party till 12 then we had the cake cutting ceremony.

we had fun.

wishing her all the best in all she does.

same goes to jasjit and ravi.

in between all this me and jas had to hunt for gifts.

choosing gifts is not AT ALL EASY!

for both girls and guys.

we decided on something for all of them.yep we did it.lols.

after all this comes the v'dae shopping.

my this weekends was spent getting gifts for my girls

his gift is still pending cos poor boy is down with chickenpox.

tell me abt it.wat a time to be down with chickenpox.

i hope he recovers real speedyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! =)

i was so scared tt i was gg to be down chikenpox too!

thank god i m not having la.

it was so fun shopping

though i had to do it alone

cuz all my darlings are not well.

anyway it gave me the time to get their gifts.hahaha.

if haven heard of it both jan and jas are injured.

jan leg is injured and she has 6 SITCHES! yes.

but she is strong! cant wait for her to join us back in trg!

she is off physical activities 2WEEKS!!!!

can wait to run ard the pitch with u.muacks!

now to jas.

our princess shoulder is injured

she pulled a muscle and it is swollen.

the doctor gave her 2 jabs.

she is so weak now.

she is also a strong gal.

speedy recovery to both my darls!

she is off p.e for 1 WEEK!

i m the only one now having to do p.e

but it is alright. i can keep in shape.

and i enjoy running unless it is tt time.

i love u both!hugs.

i haven started to wrap the v'dae presents.

it is a long way to go.

and i haf a supper longgggggggggggg daey tmrw.

pouts*

i hope i can get everything done on time.

i been a good girl and finished up all my assignments

tt i had the whole weekend to shop and watch tv and go out.

hahahahaha

on top of v'dae shopping. i had my personal shopping

cuz i had extra cash to splurge this month.

so i decided to pamper myself a lil.

maybe a lil more than a lil.hehehe.

oh michelle called todae.

she was sounding a bit stressed over her coming results.

all the best dearie! good luck for ur new job!

love u.hugs.

all the best to everyone who is waiting for their A levels results.

including the yr 3s waiting for their pw and mt results!

i think tt is for now. i hope i have not miss out anything.

advance happy valentine's day to everyone.

love love to everyone!!!!!

-sha-

p.s: i hate hypocrites!!!biggest losers in life. r beyond comparison and shame to mankind.arseholes.

again.

2006-01-29T20:19:00.000+08:00

There she goes again.

in order to make her stay

sha becames the sacrifice.

how is it fair?

yes.in her eyes tt is the right thing.

it is sad.i dun feel sad.

not at all.

it is no longer new

not tt i m numb

i predicted it.yes i did.

i just remembered i haf tuition tmrw.

dun feel like going.

tues faster comeeeeeee

i hope i will not disappointed.

not again.plssssssssss goddddd.

spare me the disappointments.

i had enuff of those.

but of course rmbr my lil prayer to u okay.

n LEAVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

it makes a difference-really.

i m selfish.too bad.

all this aside,

things are fine now.

haha

he called me back.

only jan will understand tt

rite?hehehe.

yes yes.jan is rude,sbap-ish

but i love her all the same.

because i can be like tt too

i totally identify with tt.

u rawk my b-i-t-c-h-y fren.

muacks.hugs.

i love u jas.no one tell me jokes.

it doesnt matter if they are lame.

i m kidding.she does tell good jokes too.

muacks.hugs.

i love u sangii, so nice to hear u so happy!

i wish u more happie days to come.hugs.

i love u cara.u been such a sweetie though u been bz

u broke ur promise.but i guess u had ur reasons.

i do not want to be too quick to judge.muacks.

and YOU plssss be more sensitive.i hate to be mean to u

but sometimes you just ask for it.

i m sorry ok.for being so irritating.

i love all my frens.if things are looking so good

think abt all the other problems tt u haf overcome so far

u haf come out strong.no problem is too big

if u can find a solution.=)

-sha-

am i supposed to be sad?

2006-01-29T11:26:00.000+08:00

friday 270106:

the day started of well.

CNY celebrations in school.

i had plans after school.

it did not turn out as i planned it to.

i may not be ur best one of the three

but i tried.i really did.

i wanted to make u happy.

but all that has come to nothing.

i cried.

i had to.i hold my tears to long ald.

i felt as though someone tore me.

i was hurt.

saturday 280106:

i had to attend prayers at my grandparents place.

it was the usual thing everything.

everything we do has become a routine.

we came home so late.

it was ald 11plus wen i reached home.

i met jas in the morning.

she left to bangkok todae.only coming back on tues.

oh yes! i heard a GOOD NEWS.yessa.

she is LEAVING.YAYNESS!!!!

i m suppose to be sad.but who cares.

hahahahhahhahahahahahhahahaha.

tentatively it is at the end of next mth

i hope she brings the daey forward.

i m mean.but only to pple who are mean to me.

because they always take advantage of my kindness.

not once,not twice many times.

i m no fool.

sunday 290106:

todae is CNY.

not gg to do anything else but study.

because i plan to go out tmrw and tues.

i cant wait for tuesday.

i want to go to the beach!

hehehe.

oh yea. we haf so much of assignments

as though we haf weeks of hols.

it ONLY four N half days.

that's all for now.

will be back with more updates.chiao.

-sha-

..._...

2006-01-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

Yay! Today is my dearest mummy's birthday!
HAPPY B'DAE MUMMY!
Can't wait to get my hands on the cake!
Hee..so fun!
School is soooooo draggyyyy.
Lessons never end.
It keep on goin n goinnn.
2 more days for the weekend.
Just have to die waiting.
At least i get to enjoy eating Amarit's Chessy hotdog buN! Licks...
+jas+

changes

2006-01-15T15:34:00.000+08:00

i used to fear changes.
fear of losing n the unknown to cope with.
then i realised changes cant be avoided
n one must learn to handle it.
i did.
it is not tt bad afterall.
yep.

he has been in bad moods lately.
i dunnoe y.
it is becoming very irritating.
to be tolerant
is hard.
wat does he want?
he leaves me confused.
wtf*
enuff of him.

we haf been acting weird
moods are unpredictable.
we think the coming week would be a good one.

-sha-

grr..

2006-01-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

I'm not Karu!
Period!
+jas+

yummilicious car

2006-01-08T00:56:00.000+08:00

yay! papa took me on a ride in this Fa-bu-lous car! hee!! Mercedes SL500. cant wait to get my ass in it again!

yum
yum yum!
i so love the interior.......

+jas+

my days

2006-01-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

school has started.yes yes the lessons are BORING!!!
it is my final year.my A level year.
as much as lessons are draggy and all
but school is FUN nevertheless.hehe.

today we had tamil lessons.
i m sitting with jan n sangi.
both them so cute la.
they both keep doodling on my paper
n guess wat we were right under my teacher's nose.
lols.tamil exam was over last yr.
he was telling bedtime stories.hahaha
yes i m a meanie!ahahhaha.

me n jan went to eat in al-ameen.
there was tis guy taking our orders.
we ordered nasi lemak
we didnt want fish only chicken.
then we told the guy la.
then he said no chicken only 'koli' tt means chicken in tamil.
we burst out laughing.
he is just dumb la.
wtf.

me and him are in good terms now.
he is mean.
he is nice.
he is irritating.
he is sweet.
he makes me cry.
he makes smile.
who is he?
hahahahaha.

-sha-

2005-12-30T16:29:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh! New Year is here!!!!!yippeeeeeee!!

2005 has been more of downs n ups i shld say.

but hey! i came out strong.i think.hahahaha.

all in all it was a year full of celebrations!

alot of occasions.

2006 is my final year in mi.

the yr tt i waited long enough

my passport to the uni!!!

wheeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

mummy:

i love you lots.muacks momie.

so glad u are so strong.

i must have got my strength frm u.

daddy:

i love u too.though we always argue

but u my best daddy.

u r smart.

n i got my brains frm u.hahahha.=)

carasse:

i know u for 10 yrs now.

my world's best fren!

i love u loads.

though u r gg thru a rough patch now.

u are a strong girl.muacks

and my darl.u are not doing anything wrong.

dun worry okay.everything will fall into place.

hugs.

janane:

my sunshine!muacks.my lucky charm as well.

u r a great fren who gives me crushing hugs.hehe.

though nxt yr is our final yr we will still have

more yrs of fun together.love u sweets.

making me happy always.

we might meet each other for hockey after

our years in mi.tt wld be interesting!!lols.

jasmine:

jassy wassy!holidaying away ah?ahahaha

u r someone who nvr judges anyone

accepts pple for wat they are n respecting them.

u r crazy.i mean really crazy.but u r my dear fren.

love u dearie.nxt year wld be a good yr!muacks.

grace:

hey. u r really a strong person.

u r a good fren.though u can be blur at times

u are in full control of ur life dear.

u make hockey trgs interesting.hahaha.

hugs.muacks.

habib:

hey.thanks for the advice tt u haf given me.

it is was nice working with u for project work.

though u r enjoy disturbing me.lols

but u r actually a nice person.

wish u are great year nxt year.

nesh:

i just gt to know you.

but it is fun hanging out with you.

u can be talking nonsense but

even tt sometimes makes sense.

yep.hope we will be frens for long.

of cuz to ur definition of frens.yep.

lastly

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO

MY FAMILY,RELATIVES,FRENS,O4A2

AND TO EVERYONE.

HAVE A SMASHING 2006!

-sha-

my tears

2005-12-07T15:45:00.000+08:00

you love my tears

being self-centred

i dun deserve that at all

PLEASE learn how to wipe

your own tears.

stop being a baby.

I can be nasty

so dun push your luck.

you ass.

-sha-

hush..hush..

2005-12-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

town was so crowded ystd.

it was saturday night-it explains.

ran into few pple.they noe who.

hush..hush.

hahahahahha.

me and cara had fun ystd.

we were gg crazy.

glad she felt much better,

she was scaring me over the fone.

i guess she is stronger than tt.

love you dear.

i m so bored at home.

suppose to go out but i m too tired.

i have a week of activities ahead.yep

so better rest well todae.

i dunnoe wats wrong but i been feeling rather down.

not that i know of anything tt has happened to be upset about.

dunnoe la.sigh.

winks*sha

disregard just to yearn

2005-12-01T20:26:00.000+08:00

It is just us to disregard and to yearn.
dec has started it is time to study.
i want money.more money.
to shopppppppppppp!!!
so tt i will have more clothes and shoes
and more new things to welcome the New Year
and it coming soon in one mth's time,
starting todaey.

tmrw there is gonna be a bbq
celebrating jan's and mark's birthdays.
yes. jan is having another celebration.
hahaahaha.

should i?
or
shouldnt i?

winks* sha

2005-11-29T22:50:00.000+08:00

hmmm.plans.plans and more plans.
everyone is busy making plans
to meet.to celebrate.to enjoy.
yes tt's all hols abt.
i promise myself tt
i will enjoy myself
and to study as well
will i have fun
starting tis dec.yea.

i dunnoe whether i dun trust you
or dun i trust myself.
is all i want is fun in life?
or is it my unwillingness to accept the truth?
i dunnoe. but i guess i want it this way for now.
'so sha stop confusing urself for now at least'

jas wanted to go watch movies tmrw
but there were no nice movies
so we are gg on thursday
hehe.
to watch 'AEON FLUX'
it seems nice.
oh well. i still want to watch
i have decided on the movie.

winks*sha

updates

2005-11-26T15:52:00.000+08:00

i was happily typing wen my stupid died on me
oh well. forget it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANU!!!!!
it is over as soon as it started.
it was so FUN.
it all started on 24th Nov
her bro called me in the morning
and said he wants to
have a Surprise party for jan
and told me to call all her frens.
so there was a slight alteration
to our initial plan.
though it was last min
planning it turned out well.
many of her frens cldnt make it cuz
they were working during the hols.
by the timing i finish with the calling
it was ald evening.
ard 545p.m i left my hse
to collect her cake.
it was'CHOCOLATE EXCOTIC'
it was soOOOOOOOOO
YUMMYLICIOUS*
hahhaha.
it was still early. it was 7p.m
then headed to jas place to watch movies.
it was long wait cuz
we were only leaving home at 11plus.
finally it was time for us to go over.
we wanted to take the bus
me being impatient of cuz
wanted to take a cab.
hahahahahah!
so finally decided to take the cab.
we reached janu's place ard 1135
waited for her bro till 1205
ta-da! SURPRISE!!!
She had no clue
tt we will turn up at her place.
we stayed over.
then we watched the movie
'The Perfect Man'
we went to bed ard 3plus nearly 4.
lights of for the day.
yep.

25th Nov was our trg day
jan was not gg
i wanted to go-REALLI.
i brought my trg kit and
all the things for trg
it was raining. and trg
was at a sinful timing 730a.m.
yep.
we only woke up at 1000.
we got ready and headed out.
janu went to meet habib.
me and jas met up with sangeee
and grace. to buy janu prezzie.ahahaha
and janu thought i was out on my own.
ahahhaha
i met janu at 730p.m to go over her place
for her SURPRISE PARTY.
i need to bring her back only at 830p.m
so i had to stall for time
cuz we ald in woodlands at 800p.m
so we went to causeway pt.
i was ald broke and
i didnt have to get anything.
but i managed to stall her.
we got home ard 835p.m
ta-da! ANOTHER SURPRISE!
she was also clueless abt this
she started whining
that we didnt drop her any hints.
ahahahhaha.
her relatives.
her cuzzins.
her frens.
were over at her place
by time we came.
her nxt surprise was
her b'dae gift from us.
HER BILLABONG BAG.
Then followed by the last surprise
by grace. out of nowhere
she came to her place
to give her TULIPS AND COOKIES!
we did some video caming
and took some pics.
some cant be posted
cuz some pple dun allow.
hahahaha
the rest will be soon posted.

the last day 26th Nov.
we were all tired. realli tired
me and jas left her place ard 12 noon.
tt's the end of this celebrations.
lastly.
HAPPY BRITHDAY KASTHURI!

winks -sha-

2005-11-26T14:37:00.000+08:00

Neoprintss. =)

wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeee.

2005-11-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

Phew. Im perspiring. YAY!
Dance Dance Dance.
I love dancing.
I love music.
I love myself.
I love my friends.
I love my imaginary duck.
hehe.
+jas+
Happy Birthday Aisyah! =)

2005-11-22T12:36:00.000+08:00

sigh. i miss endy's nonsense.
Both of us are so broke! Haha.
Its funny how we manage to sit at home all day.
Thank heavens, someone invented the telephone and computer.
I have been watching movies/gonna watch to kill away my boredom.
1) Miss.Congeniality 2
2) 50.cent.Get.Rich.Or.Die.Trying.
3) charlie.and.the.chocolate.factory.
4) chicken.little.
5) deuce.bigalow.european.gigolo.
6) Just.Like.Heaven.
7) the.40.year.old.virgin.
8) Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire
9) Kyon Ki
10) The Dukes Of Hazard
11) Tim Burton's The Corpse Bride
oooooooooo boy. that shall keep me occupied.
+jas+

holidays

2005-11-19T15:16:00.000+08:00

days has been busy
but i dun really mind
cuz it allows my mind to be occupied.
yep.

no complains
it is all abt being
proactive.

been going out alot lately
really alot.
nvr staying at home.
*smiles*

went for dinner last wed
with my pw mates
at PS at pizza hut
it was yummylicious*
muahahahahahaha

oh! on thursday
it was Yani's b'dae!
we went over her place and surprised her
hehehe.
then we went to bb to watch Harry Potter!!
it was GOOD!
the air-con broke down in Westmall.
yes. cant believe rite.
the damn air-con was down.
and the whole theatre stank of sweat
yikes.
so we asked for our show to be postphoned
the air-con came back.YAY!
and we enjoyed the show.

alots of planning
we gg jalan raya tmrw
we definitely make use of the whole mth
hahahahahhaha.
then on tues gg town meet cara for lunch
wed need to go to the doctor's
and meet up my ex-sch frens
thurs gg chalet till sat
sat morning i haveto give tuition
sun i am gg to stay at home
and zzzzzZZZZzzZZzZZZZZ!!
Yep.

there goes one mth of hols and nov ends as well.
and i haven touched my books at all
dec must study.
n find some part-time job
need money! to shop.shop.shop!!!
with more updates soon.
ciao.*winks*

-sha-

my mind speaks.my voice keeps slient

2005-11-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

my thoughts are found in this haze
my dreams will come true.

in all the days i have found my peace
freedom is wat i have now.

though i chose silence
my actions are stronger than words
can describe.

happy holidays to everyone!!!

-sha-

my godddddd

2005-11-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

argh! Last night I kept hearing this "Tak Tak" sound!
I thought it was my neighbouring upstairs.
God knows what they were doing!
Or maybe some woodpecker knocking against the tree!
It was so darn irritating.
But eventually I went to sleep.
When I woke up, the sound was still there.
The sound was consistent.
So I told my mum about it. She heard it too.
She said it was a frog. But don't frogs CROAK!
But it wasn't!! My cousin croaks when she is talking on the phone! Now, that's a human froggie.
Hehe. Oppsy.
Anyway, I asked my dad. Guess what he said.
He said its a squirrel! Grrrrrrrrrrrr.
Whatever it was, its darn irritating!
+jas+

aiyah

2005-11-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

todae wen to watch the movie 'just like heaven'
it is a nice movie. i like it
i was very tired.
but had to go out be4 rushing to tuition.
hahahahahah.
but i enjoyed myself.
project work is over.
lalallalalallalallala
cant be any happier.
hmm.
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE FOR US TO ENJOY!!!!
oh in tt movie
there was this quote(i think)
'Alcohol makes men braver and women loose'
is tt true?
i wonder.
hahahhahaha.
oo i gt my top n slippers
oolalaoolalala
muahahahhahahha
with more updates soon
till then all the best to
'O' level students and 'A' level students.
muacks*

-sha-

shoppin and more shoppin

2005-11-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

this is the festive season is here already!
no more FASTING!!! lalallalalalal
money was rolling in.muahahhahahahhaha
then it was time for SHOPPING!

jan came over my place yesterdae.
i was still having my beauty sleep.
of course she woke me up cuz
it was shopping time!
i went to 9 places for visiting
can u imagine how tired i wld have been?
then we got ready and headed to town
it was so FUN.
full of laughter was the daey!
we started of our shoppin at Plaza Sing.
her momie joined us too.
we walked and walked
and went into almost all the shops in town
we bought earings
clothes
shoes
bags
we ended our shopping at Far East.
then had a good meal at Sakura.
a good meal to end the good dae.
we are gg on Sunday to town again to get some stuff.
muahahhahahhahaahhah.
life is goo0d!!!
and pw is coming to a ENDDDDD!!!
LALALLALALLALAL.

winks* sha

2005-10-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

haha. my my. all of a sudden, my old memories flowed back into my mind.
the crushes i had. haha.
HAHA. yikes. i was young. n ........ hehe.
cant believe the stuff i use to do.. *grins*
boy oh boy..
ps: sha and bib, arent they cute? hehe.
+jas+

i love yall..

2005-10-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

Especially dedicated to all A level students. =)

2005-10-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

Study Smart ya..

Blossom!

2005-10-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

OMG! im like extremely happy.
I got promoted. Mummy n papa so happy!
best of all, my chemistry teacher actually gave me a certificate.
Aint tt sweettttt. muacks muacks.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Grins.
amarit got promoted too! I cant wait for next year!
cant wait to see be with my old classmates!
cant wait to disturb them! aw man, I love them lots.
thank god our class is gonna remain the same!
however, Endy and Huda will not be with us.
SIGH! I hate Mrs Ong. Die principal die!!
Endy does not deserve this! Sigh.
+jas+

I HATE THIS TIME OF THE YEAR!

2005-10-25T14:54:00.000+08:00

it is the festive season now and everyone is busy preparing for it. here i m busy freting whether i m promoted to yr 3. this time of the year is shitified la.*sighhhh* OP IS DONE!!! just need to do the pics and animations. and it is time to start on I & R.damn.
so many things has happened and is happening i dun noe where to start. oh last sunday we went shoppin with graceeeeeee. she is so cute. it was kinda girls dae out too.. me, janu, grace and aisha. it was so funny.. then me and janu wen to billy bombers to have mikshake, cookies and creme*yumlicious* we had it till we gag. i m fasting now and shouldnt be talkin abt food. oh well. my momie had been pmsing really badly but she is so much much better now. trust u wun to be nearly my momie wen is pissed or pmsing. she doesnt get pissed easily.tt's y.
promo results are tmrw and the teachers are giving us no clue. eventhough i saw Ms low todae she refused to tell us who is 'save' and who is not. sighhhhh. it is tortureous. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
of cuz above all this we still have some life in us. my class 04A2 is meeting for dinner todae at bukit panjang Sakura. Yummy yummy!! we do not know the outcome of tmrw. n dun noe how many will be in the mood for celebrations so we decide to meet up todae. we want 04A2 to remain and not separated n fit into some other class. n hope all of us make it to yr3. finish our As. all the best to everyone waiting for their results.

-sha-

2005-10-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

dang.dang.dang.
jas has hurt someone yet again.
but i seriously didnt mean it.
sigh. sorry.
+jas+

2005-10-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

hehe. today me n Anders saw this guy smacking another guy butt.
Ewwww. yuckyuck. Haha.
me cleaned the house today. Weeeeeeee.
so happy but dead tired.
Well as thou im gonna doze off anytime.
snores...ZZzzzzzz...
+jas+

how wrong cld i be?

2005-10-17T20:45:00.000+08:00

nvr will i learn, will i?
i learnt almost everything the hard way
i dun pity myself for that
i actually am thankful
cuz i became stronger
independent?
i guess so.

i have two holiday jobs line up for me.
j0bs just created for me.hehehe
promos torture were just over
and the worst is yet to come
project work is gg on fine i guess
will be done with OP by tmrw
if everything goes has planned.

it is not over yet
it is still continuing and
i dun wen my m* is gonna end
it makes so mad
it makes me cry
damn.n it makes me moody n all
Cant blog ald. ciao

sha

how wrong cld i be?

2005-10-17T20:17:00.000+08:00

dance all night.

2005-10-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeeee. Yessa. Finally, i got to dance away!
hehe. Shake ur booty baby. Danced with this guy who looks like Juggy D!
Same style, same features. Cute. Hurhur.
My mum got shocked seeing me dance so much.
She forced me to drink up a glass of water.HAHA!
Mummy Mummy. muacks.
+jas+

2005-10-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

Its be so long since i last sat on my bed to hear myself.
My thoughts, my silent breath, my ticking clock, myself.
It just struck me that im not as happy as i use to be.
Seriously. I'm still finding an answer to that.
I mean. I do have what i want, what i need in life.
Yet i'm not happy. I'm an utterly depressed soul.
I was a happy gal with a shining smile.
Now, where did that disappear to?
I do smile but not like those days.
Sigh. Wads wrong jas? Wad?
+jas+

i feel heavy

2005-10-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

just as i decide to slack
it is time for me to work again
oh yes. project work is here
it is here to HAUNT us.damn.

i was tired
i m still tired
no matter how much i sleep
i haf nvr had enuff of it.
i was so rude just now
sorry momie.
u didnt deserve tt. i m bad daughter.
sigh*
glad things are fine now.

i m running this race
not knowing when it is gonna end
i dun noe whether i m goin the right way
or m i just going in circles?
is it a one way road?
or is there a detour?
i realli wonder.

i realli wanna go to the beach
not to play but
i just want some quiet moments.
i haven been able to do so
i m always running
tt i forgot to stop

i overlooked some things
i guess everything is meant to be.
i m not resigning to fate
i just tired of trying
i need a break. tt's all.

-sha- [flew away]

u haf only urself to fall back on.

2005-10-13T13:48:00.000+08:00

In this world nthg is ever perfect
if perfection is wat u want
then the only think u can do
is perfect YOURSLLF!
but tt's impossible rite?
then how on earth
do u expect others not to make mistakes?
AND BE PERFECT.
yes. it human to err.
it is cliche but hell it is true
and we learn from mistakes n
if u repeat ur mistake then tt is_________.
i tried living up to all ur expectations.
i did.
but it was nvr enuff.
so i gave up living to ur expectations.
i led my own life.
set my own rules tt i nvr broke.
cuz they were mine.
i became a happier person.
there were less disappointments
cuz i nvr set my hopes too high.
but if it is smthg i realli want,
i will nvr give up till the end.
i m make mistakes.
i m no angel
i learn frm them.
i make a mess sometimes,
i clear it up myself.
nvr expecting someone else to pick it up after me.
but all this was nvr enuff.
always expected more.
drainin me off the lil life i haf in me.
on top of this i haf to brave the challenges tt i haf ahead of me.
well f* i m no superwoman.
i still dare dream.
i believe in myself.
cuz u haf only urself to fall back on.
no one else. if u cant pick urself up
then dun expect to be picked up.
if u haf found someone to carry u for the rest of ur life
then count urself lucky.
i been taught to love with my heart.
tt's wat i haf been doing
but sometimes i get hurt,
sometimes i m burnt.
but i dun stop loving. giving chances..
then i realise i allow myself to get used to things.
think this shld be the way. isnt it?
i m still giving in, because i care.
but tt does not mean i will give in forever
as my patience is limited,
oh well.
life goes on till the dae i stop breathing.
i will continue to cherish n treasure
in my lil corner i find comfort.
cuz it is my life n no one else's.

-sha-

2005-10-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Exams are not over for me. sighhhhhhhhhhhh.
I am afraid of not doing well.
How in the world did we manage to get promoted last year?HOW?
Seriously now. I'm amazed.
I can recall those days in secondary schools when we were having exams.
We would ask each other, "How was the paper?" and the reply was," Hmm, can ah." or "Not too bad".
But now, the reply is, "Aiyah! fail la. forget it."
My my. Will i even get promoted. Will i do well for A's. SIGH!
Don't let it be my second greatest regret in life.

2005-10-12T19:30:00.000+08:00

yay! yay!yay!
exams are finallie are overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
lalalalallalalala
oh my this period was the shittest of all la.pui.
oh well it is over! over!overrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
can finallie play hockey all i want
nvr haf to think abt doin assignments
wat assignments.muahahhahahahhaha!!!

tmrw will be watching movie
then fridae slog thru stupid pw
then sat can go sew suit with my momiee
then do some
shopppppppppppinnnnnnnnnnnnngggg
yayay!
sun gg to watch movie again!
then go makan after tt if it is time to break fast ald.
*hopes*
life cant be better rite? rite.
hehehe.
love life man!
then we haf 'chalet' plans
gg to beach n fun n more
FUN UNDER THE SUN
say oolalalalalla,.
say oolalallalalalla!!!!!!
love yall all out there
enjoy till the stupid results come out kaez!!!

winks* sha

james blunt

2005-10-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you. -James Blunt
+jas+

lalalala. po? hehe. woP!

2005-10-02T09:34:00.000+08:00

i simply adore ducks.
talking about pets. Amarit's HORNY hammy gave birth again.
This time with 7 babies. Holy crap. Now Now, didnt i mention it is horny.
Oh well. Her house is gonna stink badly. Hehe.
Wait! She is a chemelly gal with a chemelly jacket who baths with a chemelly soap.
Wop! hehe. but she is cute. hehehe. My other half. Insane half to be specific.
Hehe. Exams exams exams. i wana get thru this whole exam period.
Wish time would stop so that i can shower myself with endless joy.
Dang. to hell with it.
Anyway, now my frenster acc is so pinky. I'm lovin it. hehe.
+jas+

exams

2005-10-01T15:13:00.000+08:00

it is last weekend before the exams..sigh
tis period is so draggy.yikes.
gp paper was a killer paper
nvr expected it to be so diffcult
sigh once again.

my first paper is management
i hope it will be a good paper
cuz all my hope is on the paper.
there is abt 4 days before promos and
i cant even say i m really prepared for it
i still haf to do it
i haf to get myself promoted
no choice!!!
arghhhhhhhhhh

all the best to everyone.
chiao

-sha-

Quack Quack

2005-09-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

Oooooo boy. I'm nuts over keeping a duck as a pet.
It super adorable. Just imagine it waddling about the house with its butt moving sideways n quacking away. HEHE. Awww. ok sorry.
HEHEHEHE. quack quack.
+jas+

MY THOUGHTS N I DUN THINK U SHLD BOTHER!!!!!!!

2005-09-20T16:11:00.000+08:00

everyone is stressing out there
exams ard the corner
so lil time yet so much to study
yes it is coming
we haf to go thru it
whether a not we lyk it
damn!*sigh*

i wannnnaa shouttttttt
out alouuudddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!
i haf no idea wen i m gonna lose my senses
'u r implusive'
'stop losin ur temper'
'pissing off'
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i m tired of hearing them
i haf my :reasons for behaving the way i m

it is NOT because

i enjoy breathing down ur neck
i enjoy arguing with u
i want rule over u
i want to be rebellious
i want to be rude n upset u
NONE OF THE ABOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everything will be over soon

to my family, u may nvr come across tis
but just want say i love u all loads
n u mean the world to me.
thou smtimes i m not do wat u always want me to do
at the end of the dae i just want u to know tt
i will not do anything tt would bring harm to the family
gimme smtime n u will understand all.

to my frens, exams stress; we can overcome all those stress
pw will be over soon.real soon.okay?ciayao!!!
if u facing problems wat ever big problem tt cld be
there is always a solution. be strong.. i m sure u pple haf wat it takes!!!
muahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahhah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-sha-

lala

2005-09-20T09:13:00.000+08:00

i shall be nice. hehe.
lalalalalala. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
+jas+
ps: thanks for the appreciation cards.

2005-09-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

can someone tell wat is happening?!

-sha-

sucks

2005-09-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

sigh.sigh.sigh.
I dunno wanna study anymore.
I dun like. ish! I do i feel as though she is better than me now.
Among all days, is has to be today. Dang, my day is screwed. badly.
I so wanna do well n get promoted.
GOSH! This day really sucks. argh.
+jas+